November 11, 2008 |6:45 pm

My shoot for MenInPain went up today. My first instinct was to laugh when I saw the trailer, because it was amusing to me to see a montage of Rico screaming. I haven't had time to watch the entire shoot, but I'm looking forward to it, because it's the first time that I've ever worked with a male slave outsid eof my own. The photo below links to the shoot. Like my shoes? I'm sure you wish you could lick them....

November 4, 2008 |4:05 pm

I got home last night from a trip, that was (almost entirely) just for myself. I don't get to take those often, so I really enjoed it. I met a beautiful new girl that I'm going to be brining onboard soon both in front of the camera and behind it. She and I sat in the bar and traded stories about the incredible legions of men waiting to kiss the ground that women walk on, and had a good laugh at their (your) expense.

I also took notice of how many women love to use Halloween to indulge in wearing shoes that they wouldn't normally. You can spot a foot fetishist easily on Hallooween by how the are looking down at the high heeled feet of every sexy vampire or naughty devil. You can watch their eyes follow the seams of stockings up and down, and you KNOW exactly what they are thinking.

October 25 , 2008 |7:05 pm

I've been working a lot lately, hardly taking the time for myself that I'm entitled to. I've been traveling a lot, and contributing to other projects while working on my own. It's my favorite time of year though, and I'm clearing my schedule for more time for myself.

I love the fall, and it's the only time that I miss being back east. I miss the turning of the leaves, I miss the cider mills. I miss seeing my breath on an autumn evening.

I love halloween. It's the one time of year that gives you the perfect excuse to dress up as something other than what you normally are. I alsways choose to be some demented or bloodied version of something, because I like an excuse to shed my normal polish and challenge people to find me appealing even through a half pound of disgusting stage makeup and fake blood ;)  Last year I went as the decapitated (and surgically re-capitated) Marie Antionette, complete with safety pins holding my head on.

It got me thinking though (and inspired a clip), about you freaks out there, ands what you are for Halloween. Do you use it as an excuse to show your true colors, in the guise of humor? Do you dress up in leather, or better yet in drag, and call it the spirit of halloween, while enjoying the feeling of silky stockings and a sexy dress? If not, then how come?

I challenge all of you men to show your freak colors this year for Halloween, and send me the photo's. Don't worry, I won't share them.  This is one of the few times you'll ever see me actually request photo's 9I wake up to enough dicks IN my inbox already).

One of the freaks I correspond with most often (yes I'm talking about you 24601), was saying he'd have to move to another island if he dressed that way. I think that there HAS to be something humiliating for you, and amsuing for me, that all of you freaks can do to amuse me. Think of this as my little gift to you; inspiration to liberate yourself, even if it is just for halloween.....

October 21 , 2008 |7:28 pm

I was surfing the web recently, and I came across a clever collection of  femdom art in mainstream media. Click here to see it

October 19 , 2008 |11:43 am

I had a photographer friend take some black and white photo's of a foot worship session, and this is one of my favorites:

October 18 , 2008 |11:43 am

My new shoot with Tia Ling went up this week on WhippedAss . It was very different from my shoot with Vendetta, who is a pain slut who likes to press her own limits. Tia is more into the sexual aspect of things, wherein Vendetta was into testing herself. I enjoyed working with each of them for different reasons......

I shot with Rico for Men In Pain the day after this shoot, and that was interesting too. He's a little slut, and my arm was actually sore the next day from caning him! He took it admirably I have to say. That should be up soon too, and I'll post pictures then.

My training with my own slave has taken a turn toward humiliation lately. I've been making him dress up like a sissy, because I know that he doesn't like it, and I've been making him cum while he is, because that takes away any hope of him claiming it as a turn off. It's conditioning; every time I dress him up, he's quicker to get hard. Before long, he'll have an erection as soon as he see's that I've got panties and stockings laid out for him.

I posted this entry on WickedHeartsBoutique after a friend wrote to me to tell me about this (knowing I'd appreciate it). I thought it was goo, and worth a read for you, so I'm posting it here too:

I love the fall, because it means dressing up in knee high socks or legwarmers and heels, and tantalizing every man I pass with little glimpses of my bare skin. In fact, one of my fondest autumn memories involves driving a stranger wild while I sat and drank my hot chocolate at Starbucks....I was wearing a wool miniskirt with thin, tight socks that came just below my kneecaps and a sexy pair of mary jane heels. After I picked up my order, I chose a seat in an armchair near an older man in a suit. I crossed my legs and sipped my drink, watching people through the window until I began to get the distinct sense of being watched myself. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw the hands of the man trembling as he reached for his cup. His eyes were locked on my lower legs.

I didn't want him to know I was on to him just yet; I wanted to have some fun at the expense of this person who assumed he could greedily stare at my feet. He had no idea what he'd gotten himself into. I reached down to scratch my calf absentmindedly, and slowly slid my hand down to the back of my heel. I heard him gasp as I ran my fingertip along the edge of my shoe before settling on the clasp and undoing the buckle. I arched my foot and let my heel slip out. There was no mistaking it now; this pathetic little foot lover was practically panting as I let the heel dangle on my toes for an excruciating moment before it dropped to the floor.

At this point, I let my eyes meet his so he could see the power in my stare. The look on his face was priceless: awe, fear, and desire all at once! Sp typical, so shameless. I lifted my shoeless foot and placed it on the armchair next to me so I could massage and caress the sole. He reached for his coffee to feign indifference, but his hands were trembling so badly that he put it back on the table before it even reached his mouth. I laughed, and reached down to unbuckle my other shoe. He twisted and squirmed in his seat while I let this heel dangle, too—only this time, I left it dangling and sipped my drink as I bounced my foot up and down. The tip of the shoe rocked against my toes, but of course my shoe control is excellent, so it didn't fall. Just before I left the heel drop, I signaled for an employee who was adjusting the merchandise to come over to me.

I've never seen anyone blush more deeply than the stranger blushed as this Starbucks employee stood by the two of us. The stranger's discomfort was obvious, not only because of his beet-red face and shaking hands, but because of the obvious way he was pinning a newspaper over his lap. I asked the employee something silly about the coffee mugs for sale, flexing and curling my toes the whole time to keep the stranger fully aroused. When the employee finally walked away, my foot worshipper breathed an audible sigh of relief and closed his eyes. I took his opportunity to slip my shoes back on and finish my drink. I'd tired of my game and had only one more move to make. As I passed by his chair on my way out the door, I lifted the newspaper off his lap and dropped it in the trash, leaving his pitiful little bulge visible to anyone else in the cafe who was sitting nearby. If men want to stare at me, they better be ready to deal with the consequences.

October 12 , 2008 |4:33 pm

It's cooling down here, finally. I've been able to enjoy some more temperate weather, instead of the scorching hot desert. I'm always amazed when it cools down again here, because the intense summer heat is enough to make me forget there is a reprieve, if even only for a few short months.

I've been coordinating a shoot with Trisha Uptown for the coming week, and I've been working with Selena on a bit more of the WickedHeartsBoutique. I'm thinking she'll be crossing over and sitting in on sessions with my slave soon.

It amuses me how I get a sudden flux of chastity slaves asking me to become their keyholder every time I make mention of it here in my blog. More often than not, they never follow through, but at the mere mention of my locking a cock away, has new crop of hopefuls show their faces.

October 6 , 2008 |4:08 pm

Fall is a busy season for me, and I've got travel in store nearly every other week. Some of it is for business, some for pleasure, and some for both.  I've gotten back into the habit of locking my slave in chastity while I'm going, and with so many frequent short trips, it leaves him in he dark about when he'll be let out again.  The fun of it is in brining him over, and then sending him away without letting him out. The dashing of hope makes for an obedient slave, if and when they are let out...

September 19 , 2008 |2:31 pm

My shoot for Whipped Ass went up today.

September 17 , 2008 |8:31 pm

The shoot with Kink went well, and I'll be back for Whipped Ass again soon (more details inside). I'm also going to be doing a scene for Wasteland with Trisha Uptown, which should be fun as well.

I've been giving a lot of thought lately about how I want to proceed with my slave and his training. It's always my goal to make sure that it doesn't become stagnant, so it's a welcome challenge to my creativity to try and imagine new ways to torment him. The physical ways are always the easiest to imagine, but domination for me has never been about how hard you can hit someone, or how loud you can yell at them. It's about how far inside their head you can get, and what you can do to them while you are in there. It's about letting them get used to one thing, and then changing it up so they don't ever get too comfortable.

Tease and denial appeals to me for those reasons. It's because when you take a person to the edge, and change pace, or the stimulus or even inflict pain in it's place, it's to keep them in the moment, and not inside their own head. You hear people talk about being in "sub space" from time to time, and that's what I always look to prevent in my own submissives. I don't want them to slip into a trance like state, because detachment, for me, is the opposite of submission.

September 7 , 2008 |3:31 pm

I'm packing up at the moment, because tomorrow I'm going to be heading to the Kink armory to shoot for their Whipped Ass site. I get to have my way with Vendetta, and you'll be able to check back to the link page to see when it goes up. I'm excited to work with them, because it's very different from what I do. Everything I do is in my own, natural environment, shot my own way. This'll be in a HUGE building, with a full crew and all sorts of fun things at my disposal! It'll be different, but I'm really looking forward to it...

WickedHeartsBoutique went into it's beta launch a few weeks ago and has been enjoying a bit of success. I'll actually start advertising it in the next week or so, and I think that it'll be a good crossover for people on the fringe of the lifestyle. I really have been enjoying having a good excuse to work with some lovely creatures a little more often as well, so having the site as an excuse to bring Trisha out, or spend the day with Selena, then I'll take it!

August 28 , 2008 |5:31 pm

This week was a very busy one, as I had Trisha Uptown in town, shooting for a few projects (including Wicked Hearts Boutique), and we went out together and painted the town red. We had sooo much fun that we are trying to book projects together in the future to spend more time together.

My slaves birthday was this week, so I brought him over for a little fun. I've not had much time for him lately, because of everything that's been going on. He was desperate to see me, particularly since he found out I'd be out of town this weekend, and knew that he'd not get to worship me for another week. I thought of a fun little game to play with him, in celebration of his birthday, so I made him bend over in a particularly trying position, and I spanked him, while teasing his cock, telling him if he didn't cum before I got to the age in spankings, he wouldn't be allowed to. However, keeping himself upright and taking the spankings made it hard for him to concentrate. In the end, end though, he pulled it together, but of course, the spankings continued until he'd gotten hem all, I made him eat his cum, and gave him a pinch, as is the tradition...

August 11 , 2008 |9:40 pm

I've been having a lot of fun with the girls from The Wicked Hearts Boutique. They are all amazing in their own way, and it's been nice to not only see them gain more confidence in front of the camera, but to see different approaches to female domination. Every one of them has a different style, and they bring something different to the table. They all have one thing in common though, and it's certainly in grinding men beneath their heels. I'm taking them all out very soon very soon, and I feel sorry for the men in this city when that happens...almost.

July 23 , 2008 |6:20 pm

I've started putting together a new site that will have just POV videos on them, because I know how many pathetic men are too intimidated to look at another mans cock on screen, even if it is just another slave. The WickedHeartsBoutique will feature every POV video I've done, as well as some remakes and new material from myself, Selena, Michelle, Athena and the other Wicked Hearted girls. It's given me a chance to work with other girls, see other styles of domination and imagine new ways to torment men....

July 14 , 2008 |8:50 pm

This past week was a very busy one for me, but it was productive.

I cosponsored an adult industry event, and took place in a pageant. I took second place, which isn't bad given that my competition was comprised of all porn stars (the winner was a vivid girl).

For my talent, I brought a slave girl out on stage and flogged her. The crowd flinched, but there was lots of perking when I offered free spankings to the judges for the year, heheh.

I also got the lovely Penny Flame to make fun of one of my slaves when i caught him snapping pictures of the two of us from a distance.

I got to meet some of the girls that I've appreciated from a distance, such as Aria Giovanni and Ashley Fires who I'm hoping to get come torment the boys with me soon!

I met a lot of new girls that are very keen on working on my Wicked Hearts Boutique project, so that should have it's own (long beautiful) legs soon as well.

My VOD theater (Madeline is Wicked Vod), featuring half hour segments of streaming sessions, is finally up and running. I've never been interested in doing DVD, but this sort of allows me the ability to do a longer format than what would be possible on the web, so I'm very happy about it. I typically cut up a session into a few clips, but now I'll be able to have them unabridged!

*pictures of the event are available to members only

July 5 , 2008 |4:02 pm

A slaves conundrum:

 I get a lot of people that I've befriended via this site, or other forums, and so I'm privilege to a lot of more personal correspondence than I might otherwise. Recently I had someone vent and ask for some advice about pro domme's, as he felt as though the role had deteriorated beyond being about dominance and submission, and to him financially supporting a number of pro domme's that weren't capable of being able to do so themselves.

I took a couple of days to answer him, because I wanted to give him an answer that was meaningful, and at the same time properly covered some subjects that are delicate. This was my reply:

I tread lightly with the subject of "pro dommes". I'm an advocate for sex workers right, and a firm believe that anything you are allowed to do legally, you should be able to profit from (I'm also a huge believer/supporter in first amendment rights, btw).

The problem that I find commonly, is that people are often attracted to things by the money they'll make for them, and less from the love of them. There is a substantial difference between a woman who loves to dominate and has learned to make a living at it, and a woman who's realized that she can make a living at it, and come to enjoy it.

I don't want you to think that I'm bashing pro domme's because I'd never do that. I'm just saying, that for me personally, I think that involving money is a distraction on what's going on.

I have a love for dominance and submission, that I've figured out how to capitalize on, without finances ever being a matter between my slave and I, and that's how I prefer it. I would NEVER put myself in a position where I have to ask a submissive for money, either for the amount of time I've given them, or for a service rendered, or just as a favor.

This is why I keep my dayjob as well, which some people might see as a conflict of interest my working in adult entertainment. Some "purists" would consider what I do beneath a dominant woman, but the fact is, I enjoy what I do, I make a very healthy living between both endeavours, and I can continue my role as a dominant woman without it ever being compromised by the matter of money.

I was actually just considering this recently, because I'm redesigning my site, and I think that I'm going to take the keyholder section down. I really loved the idea of doing this, but i'm so tired of people trying to negotiate a tribute with me, that's it's detracted from the original goal and made it feel cheapened. Being pampered by someone that appreciates you is one thing, but saying "you have to buy me these shoes so I'll hold your keys" is another matter. it takes the fun out of it for me, and makes it a job instead of a hobby, is that makes any sense.

Choosing a domme is a serious matter, that shouldn't be taken lightly (as is choosing a slave). You have to approach it like a real relationship, if you want it to be real. Find out what the person wants out of it for themselves. Find out if their goals are long term or short, and if they match your own. Sometimes you'll make a compromise, but it might be better to abstain than involve yourself in a doomed relationship. You might not get a partner that has the endowments you most desire, but you will find that choosing one that matches your level of commitment will be much more fulfilling than choosing one that's got perfect tits or the largest cock.

I think you already know the answer to your own question; if you can't pay your own rent, you don't have enough control over your own life to guide anyone else's.

M.

July 2 , 2008 |10:56 pm

BEHIND THE SCENES:

 I've decided to make this blog entry an open answer to some questions I've gotten about little details, and to give and inside look at how I do things.

Some of you have asked me about how I handle production, which being a single woman operation, it's not always easy. It 's become easier, since I have a second camera, but without the luxury of a soundstage, I use a single position often. I also don't like to make too many cuts and edits, because I like the feeling of continuity that doing it all in a single shot provides. I like showing that it's one single continuous scene, and only change angles/cams if I think you, the viewer needs to see better what's going on.

I've been adding more and more content to the site this month, trying to get the total number of videos higher. I've also been working to add multiple formats, to make viewing and downloading easier on some people. I'm not inclined technically int hese regards, so often I have to publish the video and then have someone else reformat it. That's why the WMV's get posted later on, in some cases.

Some of you have asked about what ever became of my slavegirl, and so I've decided to say that it didn't work out. In the end, I realized that she was more interested in having her own experience than in serving me, which isn't what I'm looking for in a 24/7 slave. She's young (only just 21), so she's got some growing up to do. I on the other hand, know just what I'm looking for, and will accept no less. So I'm  on the hunt again, for my housegirl. Anyone know of any? ;)

June 14 , 2008 |6:56 pm

This week I was away on yet another trip. I feel like I'm gone more than I'm home these days, but this one included a bit of fun. I was able to attend a fetish party, and see the live filming of two different fetish videos that happened while I was there. I don't attend fetish parties often, because quite frankly, 95 % of the ones that I've attended in the past seemed more like halloween, and less like people that knew anything about the bdsm lifestyle. This party, however, was pretty amazing, and I'll have to say that it was worth all the effort.

I watched a domme tie up another woman, and be fucked in front of a huge audience, by a number of different men, and with a strapon as well. I'm not in the habit of showing penetration on film, but I can definitely understand the appeal of it. They slave being penetrated was definitely into the exhibition of it, and from her rope harness, she hung from the ceiling, looking into the eyes of us watching, and you could see that she was enjoying the humiliation of such an intimate thing in front of strangers. People talked, and cheered, and snapped pictures, and I'll have to say, I would have enjoyed participating in her torment.

I'm still trying to make the webcam show work, but it seems that I've hit another snag, and it might not be June 27th, as I originally hoped. I'll keep you updated though.

May 24, 2008 |9:18 pm

I was shooting with Michelle today for the Wicked Hearts Boutique.We were shooting a forced crossdressing POV, and got on the subject of how many hetero men we've both come across who want to be made to wear womens panties, and who quite often would like to be fucked in the ass with a strapon. The general public would probably judge these men as gay, but that's not accurate. I think that typically the presence of another member of the same sex would be neccessary for a man to be even remotely gay. Michelle said "If all it took was an object inserted in the ass to make a man gay, everyone that ever got a prostate exam would be a homosexual".

May 19, 2008 |2:39 pm

I have been throughly enjoying the company of the budding Domme Selena. Her form of domination may be different from mine but is none the less wicked and cruel. I have had her over to observe and participate in some of my sessions lately. The look on my slaves face when she walked in recently during one of our sessions was priceless. I enjoyed watching her strut into the room commanding attention from him. His eyes did not know where to go or what to do. It was overload for him. She speaks in such a sweet but cruel voice and totally ignored him as if he was not even there. She proceeded to tell me about her day and we caught up on girl talk. She had been shopping all day and had the cutest pair of new heels on. Without batting an eye and still ignoring him she walked over to my slave (still talking to me and ignoring him) and just took off her shoe and stuffed it in his face. He about fell over and we both laughed hysterically. He is such a loser and a weak little fuck for women's feet. I made him continue to worship our feet while I humiliated him in front of her. I was very impressed with the way she handled him, she did not hesistate to join in on the humiliation. After a bottle of wine and a foot massage for us both she said the cutest thing. "These pathetic fucks should totally worship us for being so kind enough to indulge them in their sick fantasies" I definitely look forward to having her over during more sessions!

April 24, 2008 |6:35 pm

It's amusing to put a man who is out of line (in public) in his place in front of all of his friends and strangers. It gives me so much pleasure to hit them right between the eyes; embarrassing them to the point where they would never think of stepping out of line like that in front of another women again. I am doing a public service, I feel, with my form of training, and it's rather generous of me I believe.

I was out very late recently with two of my girlfriends. We stopped by a late night eatery after a night of drinking and dancing. All of us were dressed to the nines. I was in a vintage designer dress, dainty buttery stilettos and sexy seamed stockings. There was a group of obnoxious men in line in front of us and one of them had the audacity to call me "hey so and so". (insert the name of one annoying celebutant). He must of said something else after that but I was so fumed it was all foreign to me. He laughed and thought he was being "cute" for his friends being condescending to me. But, not one of them laughed after the cold, stern glare that was pointed at them. Even my girlfriends know when to not say anything but just stand behind me and smile.

I thought it only fair, given the way he'd publicly compared me to the first celebutant that passed through his drunken mind, that I'd address the situation in kind. I told him in front of all of his friends (and everyone else in the restaurant) what a weak, small minded and, I'm sure, small dicked little worm he was. I told him he was being a loser and that he would never have a prayer with a women like me, and that his childish behavior was probably evidence of all the rejection he'd received in the past. The fact that he called me a celebutant, just because I was wearing an expensive dress was also proof that he had absolutely no idea of how to approach a woman, and that keeping his mouth shut might at least help him avoid being told publicly what a twat he was.

He proceeded to turn red and stuttered trying to give some excuse for what he had said, but it was to late. There are no second chances for first impressions, particularly when they are blown so completely. His friends didn't laugh. They didn't do anything; they just stood there and stared. He must have felt like he had a spotlight on him. How embarrassing for him for to attempt to be clever, but succeeded only at making an ass of himself. I told him that he had no idea who I was, and that making an assumption about me had actually managed to give insight to everyone around him about what a shallow, useless, pathetic fuck that he actually was. I didn't feel the need to assure him that I was well out of his league, because I'm certain that no one around at that moment could have ever thought otherwise, or that he would ever stand a chance with any real woman.

His posture turned to mush and he sulked his way to his table. As he walked away an older women alone standing in line actually clapped out loud. My contribution to public service wasn't just in chastising him for his sake, but for the sake of all the men within earshot who; if they have any brains at all, will think twice before approaching any woman with anything other than respect.

April 23 , 2008 |11:04 pm

No sooner than I got back from my trip with my slavegirl, than I found out that my grandmother passed away, and so two days after I got home, I was back on a plane headed to the place where I grew up. I call it that (the place where I grew up), because calling it home couldn't be further from he truth. Every trip back I'm reminded that I've grown on, and grown up, and that I could never call it home again.

I know that words circulated about my lifestyle, and about my site. I know that people that I went to high school with have joined or bought my clips. I know friends that have commented on specific scenes to other friends, in hopes of gaining confirmation as to if it was me or not. The last time I was home, people were still in the "finding out phase", so I was greeted with apprehension. Now though, people have heard how well I'm doing for myself. They see that I'm in a better position than I ever was there, and the apprehension has turned to curiosity. I can see the questions on the tips of their tongues, but if they want answers, they'll have to have the courage to at least speak to me face to face as much as they've done behind my back.

It also strikes me with each trip back about how little progress people have made. I see where I grew up, and the entire place is like going back to your kindergarten classroom. I pity them rewally, that they'll never see the things I've seen, or do the things that I do. I pity them that they all feel like their lives are out of their own hands.

More than pity though, I feel pride. I feel a sense of accomplishment. I feel empowered by the knowledge that I was dealt the same hand as most of them, and have managed to play it better than they have. My beginnings were humble, my upbringing average, but at the end of the day, I am where I am now, because of my own efforts. I call it effort, but it hardly seems like even that. This was the natural course of things, as far as I've always been concerned...

April 4 , 2008 |3:57 pm

Through business dealing with my "day job", I was able to acquire content from a site that I'd modeled for in the past. It's all girl/girl bondage, and very different than what I do here and now. i'd forgotten how striking some of it was (even if slightly overproduced). It marks a different point in my life, but every point in my life has lead me along the road to where I am now.

I know the arguments that some men ONLY like to see girls dominate men, but the reality is; i'm dominate regardless of gender. I love women for different reasons than men, and treat them differently. I ultimate want slave girls that I can train to stand over men, with whips in their hands, while I hold on the leashes around their beautiful necks. A hierarchy of domination that puts men at the bottom of the food chain, where they belong.

March 30, 2008 |9:20 pm

I see D/s in so many public situations. I do not know if it is my devious mind at work or this is just the way life is. I tend to think it is a little bit of both. Recently one of my girlfriends and I went out to a laid back lounge to share a bottle of wine and have girl talk. She is not a Domme per se nor is she submissive by any stretch of the imagination. She is not in the BDSM lifestyle. However, recently she has become very curious about my lifestyle and EVERYTHING involved. She has questions about everything. She said recently she had been fantasizing about what it would be like living a lifestyle
like mine. Her eyes light up at the thought of having the power over men the way I so naturally do. While we were discussing this there was a conversation going on across from us. It was quite obvious that the "couple" was not really a "couple" at all. However much the guy wished they were, this was an obvious "just one of the girls"
situation. The girl went on and on about Derrek this and Derrek that. He is so great, he is so gorgeous, he is so strong. Even when she was talking to this meek guy sitting across from her about the things she
wished Derrek would change she said it with total confidence that Derrek was definitely the bigger and better man no doubt even though she was totally ignoring the fact that the poor weak guy was gazing at
her ready to wipe her ass, pay for her drink and anything else his goddess wanted knowing full well he could never live up to the real man that is Derrek. Maybe she knew it. Maybe this was her way to dig him even deeper. In the end she went on and on about "awwwwwww but you are great to I mean you are like seriously (and here is the kicker) just one of my girls". Said so sweetly, it sends a razor sharp knife through his heart as he proceeds to pay for all the drinks with a
smile, opening the door for her on the way out and I am sure dropping her off at home where she can go a fuck a real man all night long and he goes home dreaming about what it would be like to be just that.

Seeing this situation made me laugh and I bring this to the attention of my girlfriend. She found it silly and started to think herself about her everyday life and how she is very often in situations just like this one and beyond. At her job, in her circle of friends almost everywhere she goes she could pick out a situation where she realised........maybe I do have a budding Domme in me just begging to come out. She was very pleased with herself. It amused me, ALOT. It
got me thinking more about how I would love to train a women on film to dominate men. I would take great pleasure in it...

March 14, 2008 |8:20 pm

There is a construction convention in town this week, and it's reminded me of one of the reasons i hate living in a tourist destination. I was out at the bar last night, and had some miscreant say outloud "thos are storebought", presumably in reference to my tits (which are absolutely 100% real). I turned to him and said you'll stop fucking staring NOW, if you know whats good for you". The bartender came over immediately and threw he and his friends out, which was probably best for them.

March 4, 2008 |8:17 pm

The new slave girl came for her first visit this week. I didn't play with her, as much as I interrogated her. I sent her home with assignments, which are part of what ultimately whill help me make my determination.

My plan is to break her down, and then build her up again. I plan on making her capable of dominating men, while still submitting to me. I've had a few people ask how she will rank among my slaves, and while she will come first and foremost, and be a more cherished pet than any man can be, she absolutely must not realize that until after she's been broken down. I'm a believe int he fact that you don't reach the bottom unless you think there is no further to go, and as long as you feel there is someone beneath you, you aren't there yet.

I've moved this past week, and after making my slave believe I was leaving him behind for good, I allowed him to come back. I used him to move my toys and things that I didn't trust to the movers (my undergarments were all safely locked in trunks). The last time he came to my new place, I filmed a few things with him, and made him believe that I was leaving him behind. When he came back today to serve me, he was in much better form; imagine that.

February 23 , 2008 |1:37 pm

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January 16 , 2008 |12:06 am

I've been particularly wrapped up with my day job this month, and you'll likely be seeing me on television. I was at the AVN show, conducting interviews with celeb's in both the mainstream and adult entertainment industry. I'll post some video here as soon as it's given to me (after it's aired).

I received another order from stockroom, and I'm dying to try it out. I got a fuck machine with a male adapter on it, so I can milk my slaves without getting my hands dirty now! I'm excited about using it, and even more excited about getting them broken in to use it the other way! I also got a latex vacuum bed, and i locked a new slave into it, but with the vacuum going (to make it airtight), it's too loud, so I wasn't able to publish it. I'll be posting pictures though.

January 3 , 2008 |10:59 pm

I had a slave girl stay with me over the New Year holiday, and I just sent her home today. It's been nice having a woman around that can serve me, but who also believes herself to be dominant to men. We go out together, and enjoy tormenting men in clubs, and are fiercely protective of one another while out together, but behind closed doors, she loves to do as I please.

Next year for the new years holiday, I plan on serving sushi off of her naked body to all of my guests. it'll be shocking for some, but oh so much fun for me..

December 18, 2007 |11:09 am

I was at the playboy mansion again recently, and I think that I found a new slave. Someone that is a business associate, but who knows about me. I definitely feel as though the other job is moonlighting, and that this is who I am now, because despite the notoriety and accolades that I've achieved in the industry as (what I now refer to as) my alter ego, it is more thrilling for me to be recognized there from here, than the other way around.

Today I got in a huge amount of new toys from stockroom, include a latex vacuum bed and some pony gear. My slaves HATE it when i get new toys, because I'm always enthusiastic to use them. just wait until I get my first electro toys...

December 11, 2007 |12:55 am

I'm considering 12 days of chastity for my slave, leading up to the xmas holiday. Then I'll decide if he's on the "naughty" or "nice" list, and reward him accordingly. What do you think that should be??

I've had lots of requests for advice on chastity belts. I personally prefer the cb 3000, but it really depends on the wearer. for someone with a smaller little clit stick, the cb 6000 is the better choice. The cb 3000 is more roomy, while the cb6000 is more secure and tighter. Either way, both are suitable devices for stopping filthy little hands from pawing at little clit sticks!

November 12, 2007 |6:55 pm

I've been too short on time to keep up with blogging lately. It seems that I'm leaving to go someplace else within hours of returning home. My slaves are anxious, which I use to my advantage. They are willing to do more and more to secure a moment of my precious time. I even got one of my slaves to subject himself to a facial from my boyfriend, under direct threat of his not getting to serve me anymore, as I don't have the time' for slaves that aren't willing to bend for me...
I was talking with a few slaves tonight about the idea of a slave prison island, so I'm waiting for one of you dirty little sluts to find the real estate for it. Alcatraz, or something of the likes would be ideal....

November 3, 2007 |6:52 pm

I just got back from a nice little vacation. The first non-working one i've had in a while. My birthday is very near Halloween, and it's my favorite holiday, so naturally I celebrate it with enthusiasm. I use the day as an excuse to be the opposite of what I generally am. I make myself into something ghoulish (I was the partially beheaded ghost of marie antoinette this year) and wreak (a different sort) of havoc on the town with my girls. We spent almost a week having the sort of fun that might scare some people <eg>

October 18, 2007 |7:12 pm

Princess Molly and I have an australian friend named Kitty that's been staying with us. She's been appreciating our productions, and helping us behind the scenes, but I thought it was time to push her into the spotlight, so I filmed a few clips with her this week. She's a good contrast to Molly and I, who tend to be over the top for some people. She is a princess, but not in the way that most people expect; she simply believes beyond doubt that she's entitled to anything she wants in the world, and most men are inclined to agree with her, and go out of their way to get it for her. We are a dangerous group, the three of us...

I've been alternating weeks with training my slaves, which makes them both anxious. They don't know who else I'm seeing, or when I'm seeing them anymore, which means that none of them are likely to take for granted my precious time. They grovel at my feet, and I play games with them. I call and say, be ready, just in case I call and tell you to come over, and they wait by the phone, and I leave them that way...

September 17th, 2007 |12:05 pm

The summer has kept me exceptionally busy, with all sorts of new things. I've been interviewed recently for a book about women in adult entertainment (I'll let you know, as soon as I have the title), and have been attending a ton of events.

I took a trip back to the place that I come from (I'll never be able to call it home again), and heard even more interesting stories this time about the sorts of things that I supposedly do. I decided this time that instead of defending or explaining myself, I'd just agree to everything that people asked me, and sometimes even make the stories more fantastical. I made sure that it was to the point of ridiculousness by the end, and thank to one of my good friends, we made fun of the stupidity of it in front of people. She would say "I hear you ride in on a carriage drawn by pony boys, but it's lead by white tigers", and I would answer "yes, unicorns are too hard to come by these days". It's only natural that I should enjoy having fun at others expense, so when you make yourself available to me, don't think I won't take advantage, whether it's in the context of bdsm or not. You don't have to be in my bedroom for me to make you my bitch.

The new slave has been progressing nicely. He's a bit rough around the edges, but he's eager, and that can get you far. I'm going to have him over soon, and have a little competition between the slaves...

Lately I've had to be more involved with the technical aspects of running this site. I've had issues with people stealing and distributing my videos on some of the torrent sites, and so i've had to change hosting and file management services recently to prevent this from happening. This weekend one of those services transferred me to a more secure server, and knocked out my email temporarily as well as eliminating some of my movie files. I was away while all this happened, so i couldn't do much about it. I think that I'm going to make one of my slaves handle these things while I'm gone from now on.

August 13th, 2007 |10:27 pm

I met with a new slave today, and he's agreed to let me start filming him. If he doesn't loose the nerve, i'll be starting with him this sunday. This means I'll be giving my slave some "Time away", which is likely to make him anxious and jealous. He's a cuckold though, so what more should he expect?

I've been chatting a lot on ALT lately, with some of you that have found me here and followed me there, as well as a few of you that found me there and have come to my temple to worship. Either way, I've been having some interesting conversations (and fed some blithering idiots some wrath in the forums), and I've begun to realize that the lines between regular life and the lifestyle are becoming less and less apparent to me. I'm starting to take for granted that everyone is a deviant, in some way or another...

I've mentioned before that I'm on myspace, but you have to write me and tell me who you are if you invite me. I get millions of frequests, and I generally will just check my inbox for messages and match them up to friends requests. The rest of them I generally delete.

July 25th, 2007 |12:09 pm

I went to San Francisco whis weekend with a girlfriend, and had a good deal of fun. I made my slave stay at the hotel, and she and I went out to the bar. We were torturing the bartender, who we discovered had a pantyhose fetish, when my girlfriend removed her's when they ran. He was watching a little too keenly in a packed san fran bar for it to slip by, so we had to make mention of it, of course. By the end of the night, we gothim to not only admit to having a pantyhose fetish, but he ended up showing us pictures of how he likes to wear them on his head, so of course we gave him the discarded pair, and made him prove it in a packed bar....

July 8th, 2007 |4:25 pm

Princess Molly and I were bored last week, so we went shopping. We went to Agent Provocateur (yes, again), and started talking about the items that i'm (still) waiting on from sissy Marie. Molly decided we should call sissy marie, give him a hard time, and ask WHY I was being kept waiting.

We called, and he was in a meeting. He answered the phone while facing a group of his coworkers, and I imagine the look on his face must have been priceless. We teased him mercilessly, and made sure that we pushed all of his buttons, including asking what his coworkers would think if they knew he had a big dildo that he calls "black beauty" that he likes to ride while wearing womens panties. When we felt he was sufficiently flustered, we hung up on him.

As I knew would be the case, he ran to the bathroom and jerked off (he sent me a message later telling me so)...

July 2nd, 2007 |5:51 pm

Last night I spent some time chatting with a sisy maid. I've been interested for quite some time in taking a straight man and transforming him into a woman. The conversation was interesting, to say the least. I did a little bit of training with "her", that concluded with her suggesting that I have panties made to slip on over the chastity belts of those who's keys I won. I looked into it, and found a pretty easy way to have it done. Click here to visit the cafepress store where you can get them now.

I've also been talking to a few new potential slaves. This is always a tricky subject for me, because I want a legitimate slave relationship, and a lot of slaves are unwilling to be filmed, while the ones that are, tend to be too far away to do so on a regular basis. Three are huge distances in lifestyle and geography that have to be crossed before i can even consider a slave, and then i have to find the saituation agreeable. Don't get me wrong, I get offers on a daily basis, but most of them are along the lines of "I'll come there to serve you (for a day).", which doesn't work for me at all. I'm not in the habit of entertaining people just because they are willing to come to town...

July 2nd, 2007 |5:51 pm

I finally did it; i broke a chastity belt. I was too rough with one of my slaves last night, and I snapped it. So i made him order the cb6000 today to replace it. i hope this one is more durable.

June 25, 2007 |5:49 pm

Princess Molly is coming back this week. I'm looking forward to seeing her. She's here so often that I feel like she lives with me anymore, and I miss her when she's gone. I've got at least one slave that will be happy to see her too: he's got a bit of a crush on her. She gives me a reprieve from him when she's here, as he's needy, and I can send him off to do things for her for a bit.

Speaking of slaves, slave angel and I are no longer in a training relationship. He will be serving Chloe full time, which is for the best. His needs as a slave are far from my needs of a slave.

I went back to my home town this past week, and found that news of my endeavours have spread like wildfire. There isn't anyone left there that doesn't know about my life as a domme. I was amazed at how small town the place that I came from seems. It's been a lifetime since I've lived there, and I realized I could absolutely never call it home again.

June 7, 2007 |3:54 pm

I have always been fond of asian woman (i'd love to ahve one as a slavegirl), and while walking over a crosswalk last night, a very beautiful specimen was walking toward me. A large truck passed below us very quickly, and it caused her skirt to fly up ala Marilyn Monroe. Her cheeks turned a shade of pink that matched her panties, and she looked around to see if anyone had noticed, and of course I had...

I brought the first of the videos from my other project over last week as a bonus update for you faithful members. It's the first time most of you will have seen me with a slavegirl, but it won't be the last.

I've very fond of girls, and when it comes to slaves, my preference for gender is ambiguous. My treatment of male slaves is different than that of their female counterparts though, that's for certain. I treat slavegirls as pets, and men as objects...

May 20 , 2007 |8:13 pm

I've been part owner in a few other sites (and modeled for them occasionally too), and until recently, have divided my attention between them. I've started to feel spread a bit thin, so I'm cutting ties with all of those that don't fit into my life at the moment. I've got a few contracts that I'm obligated to fulfill, but one of my biggest projects will be coming to an end within the next two months. It's one that I really love, and have put a great deal of creative energy into, but it's sort of a conflict of interest with this site (which is my main priority at the moment).

One of my biggest issues is that my partner in that site has had trouble with some of the models flaking out, and I often get called in to replace them. I don't mind it when i'm stepping into a role that I would naturally assume, but as i've mentioned before, i don't have much patience left for modeling outside of domme work. The commitment with the site I've been referring to has come up for renewal, and both my partner and I have decided to discontinue it so we can pursue things that are more aligned with our own personal interests. It'll give me more time to work on this site, as well as giving me more time for myself. I will miss it a good deal though, particularly since it's my excuse to somme women, which typically isn't as well recieved here. I'll be bringing some of that content to this site, after the other site has shut down.

I've had a lot of visitors lately, and finally I've got a few days to myself. I'm trying to relax and have a peaceful few days worth of reading and laying at the poolside sipping champagne before the next wave comes. I'm also doing some organizing around the house, planning a way to better organize all my bondage gear. I want chests/trunks with drawers that cascade when I open them. I want them all velvet lined so that the tools of my trade are that much more dramatic when I pull them out...

May 14 , 2007 |4:13 pm

Molly Star was with me for the last week; she went home yesterday. We had a LOT of fun while she was here, and she's a budding domme herself. She's very petite and princessesque, and it was a lot of fun having someone that contrasts and compliments my own style. She got to have a bit of fun with slave angel (off cam only, unfortunately) as well as with slave x. I'm hoping to have her out again soon so we can continue the debauchery that we started. I've had a LOT of visiters in town recently; I can't remember the last time that I went a week without having someone around...

May4, 2007 |6:46 pm

I've got a few promising new slave applicants at the moment for my keyholding services. I've also got a potential slave that may be coming to stay with me for a while, if everything goes according to plan. Training slaves can be very cyclical, as most slaves get tot he point where they want more from the relationship, and eventually i've got to drag them back to reality. I went through a series of dismissals of slaves last month, and this month it's all new applications. As for my own realtime slaves, well, they can be just as much of a challenge at times. In general, i'm pelased with their service...

I've moved the older entries off of this page and into the new members area of the site. I'll continue to write here as well, but there will be additional details I'll make available only to members along with the archives. I've decided to make the members area very low key, as I don't want it to change the feel of the site. I'm not driven to make it a huge following, just to make it pay for the maintenance. You can find the Join page here and once you've signed up, you can enter here . It's largely archive video, with some new photo's and a few little things that are new and exclusive.

April 29, 2007 |2:13 pm

This weekend i made one of my slaves drive me the 4 hour drive to attend a music festival in California, and then come back and pick me up two days later.. My boyfriend was waiting there for me and met me at the bed and breakfast that my slave dropped me off at. I had my slave bring my luggage inside and kissed my boyfriend passionately before telling my slave to leave and to be back to pick me up. I could see the mixed emotions in his face as he left...

The visit from my girlfriend was a lot of fun. We went and saw a few shows and got VIP treatment at a few of the clubs. We were up dancing on the stage at one place, and the guys beneath kept pawing at us, so I reached down and bitch slapped two different guys. HARD. That seemed to be a sufficient enough message, as they downgraded to obnoxious ogling instead of pawing. Perhaps it's my lifestyle, but i have NO patience at all for blithering idiots that think they are going to get ANYWHERE by pawing at a girl they don't know. Honestly, what the fuck could you be thinking to try and reach your hands up a girls skirt at a bar? If any of you readers do that, Id like you to know that I hope you die a firey painful death.

If you've written to me in the past week, you'll need to be patient. Between my girlfriend visiting and my trip out of town i've gotten behind on correspondence.

April 16, 2007 |3:23 am

This week my girlfriend Chloe launched her own Clips4sale store(Cuckold the man). I've been training Chloe to be a domme (and having a good deal of fun with it), and I lent her slave Angel to help further the education of both of them. I made a guest appearance on her launch clip, and I'm hoping it will go well. I was impressed with how many of you noticed it and wrote with either your concerns that I was being ripped off, or interest in that I might be opening another store. I'm just helping a girlfriend, and creating another opportunity to do something that I enjoy.

I've got a girlfriend that's coming into town this weekend, and I'm very excited to have her here. She and I are total opposites in so many ways, but get along famously none the less. She's an activist for women's rights and has a masters, and it's always nice to have a beautiful intelligent woman here that I can spend some time with. I can't wait to introduce her to Chloe...

April 10, 2007 |10:33 pm

I recently released "The Cuckold Dresser" on my clips4sale store. I've been having fun playing with the footage, and I've created a preview of sort, set to music. It's available (sorry, times up) for a limited time. It's in quicktime format (MOV), requires 7.1 or higher and before you ask, no Ican't put it in any other format or help you figure out how to play it. Download it, as I'll be taking it down before long.

April 9 , 2007 | 6:21 pm

Today I got a written apology from Slave "T", along with a gift certificate. How would one say "your loss" in german?

April 8 , 2007 | 10:13 pm

Two Birds; one stone.. I'll admit that my last blog entry has an ulterior motive. I was calling Slave T out about his not sending me real keys, and of course he folded and acted like a petulant child about being caught. Do I come off as being foolish? I don't think t hat I do, but it seems like Slave T must if he expects me to believe her's really stayed locked in chastity for TWO MONTHS and managed to maintain a perfectly bald cock. It's insulting to be expected to believe something like that, and when I don't, he has the audacity to call ME a monster. This is what he wrote to me today:

Hello Madeline,
i broke my CB now, i think, its better, i wrote you mails, greeting-cards but you answered.....now i am free...its better.....i have over 80 movies of you but i will never again buy any...because, i send you gifts and i got never a thank you....and now i dont need a key.....i am very satisfied....very
i loved you so much but at this time, you was a normal girl, a sweet girl..not a MONSTER

This is after four months of chastity training, and THIRTEEN emails in the last 5 days. Apparently I wasn't attentive enough though. He wrote in german when he wanted to say things to me that he was too cowardly to actually say, and I wasnt able to get a clear translation on them. Can anyone translate with for me?:

Hallo geliebte Madeline,
weißt Du daß ich Dich geliebt habe???? Total??????
Und ich war, bin nur ein Spielzeuf für Dich...das tut sehr weh...
Ich wünsche Dir ein frohes Osterfest und ein tolles Jahr....
Ich kann leider nur mit Menschen die mich auch mögen und verstehen...ich bin kein Idiot und immer nur ein dummer Sub....
Liebe Grüße und ein Küsschen

To slave 'T" and all the false slaves like him:

I am not your girlfriend, i am not your mother. I am not your wife (you already have one of those). I'm not here to coddle you, i'm not here to serve your wants, needs and desires. I am a maitresse, and you are here to serve me, not the other way around. Don't worship at my temple and then forsake or renounce me for not changing to suit what YOU want. I give no false hope and make no false promises. I'm not here to answer your prayer, unless you've prayed to be able to worship a goddess (if only for a little while).

Slave "J" said today "..I really don't like the thought of someone playing around with you. Not only does it upset you but it could ruin things for us true slaves as well.... " to which I responded that in the long run, it's the slave that benefits the most from that sort of training and if you don't get the most out of it, then really, it's your loss. You've missed an opportunity you will likely never find again, and you've no one to blame but yourself.

April 6 , 2007 | 12:41 pm

I have a set of keys here for slave "K", who lives in england and sent them to me. We were to start training right after i received them, and he responded to one email, then disappeared. I've got a feeling the keys that he sent me go to a bike lock rather than a chastity belt. No return address on the envelope and he's not responded to any of a number of emails over the past few weeks. Should I just toss the keys?

On a lighter note I watched a few episodes of Desperate Housewives recently; I love the cuckolding themes that slip in. It's watered down as a fluff soap opera, but they are there is you are looking for them.

April 1 , 2007 | 10:08 pm

I thought about making a post today as an April fools day joke saying that I was repenting and joining the convent, but i don't think anyone would buy it long enough for me to even get out "April Fools..."

I turned in the keys at my old apartment today. It took a while to put everything in order there, since I'd put holes in he walls for backgrounds and tie downs. I think my little old lady landlord was a little confused by a few things....

Now i'm focused entirely on my new place, which i'm absolutely in love with. I'm getting closer to my goal of furnishing the place, since i've gone with a new style entirely, plus it's a good deal larger than the last place.

In other news, i'm progressing nicely with Chloe's training as a domme. I'd been trying to explain the appeal to her of the lycra suits (which I admit i was skeptical about myself), and finally I made her put one on so she could see for herself. I rubbed my body against hers while it was completely encased in the form fitting material, and before long, she was purring like a kitten.....

I filmed a scene today that's epic in proportion. I'm not sure if it will sell well on Clips or not, but I'm very happy with it in regard to my own terms of artistic expression. In honesty, i don't care if it sells a single time; i'm just happy that I filmed it the way that I wanted to. I've actually been thinking lately that I'd like to direct scenes starring other domme's as well. I'd love to be able to be behind the lens making erotica that is so beautiful that it hurts.

March 26, 2007 | 10:13 pm
I found out today that one of the regular sellers that I buy dungeon equipment from just fell off the face of the earth. I paid him for a ton of new equipment, and it looks like i'll never get any of it. I checked his ebay store when i got no answer from him, and it seems that he's been shut down after having 90 claims for failure to deliver.

I've been doing a lot of shopping for fetish gear lately (thankfully not all from that seller). I'm expanding my collection to include a few new CBT items, as i'm going to be doing more of that sort of training with my slaves.

I have been thinking a lot about the sort of videos that i will offer as exclusives if/when i open the members area. I rather enjoy the idea of being able to make something a bit more artistic as the offering. In my mind, i see clips shot in a stylistic manner that reflects how i feel when i'm filming. I can hear music in the background and see the sort of scenes that will be beautiful and devastating. Will my viewers have an appreciation for it though? We shall see....

March 22, 2007 | 12:39 am
I've been remiss in my blogging, due to company from out of town as well as being sick. It seems I caught a bit of a cold that was more than a little inconvenient during the past weekend.

I had my girlfriend over and we were watching the video of her suspension, when my out of town friend suddenly fainted behind us. Apparently hearing her scream when she was first lifted caused him to pass out on his feet and hit the ground. Hard. We were both a little shocked, thinking he was attempting to be funny, but to our surprise he really did faint. I've never seen anyone faint, let alone a man, and by the mere sight/sound of something witnessed not in person mind, you but just on a computer screen.

I went to the strip club this weekend. It's something that I never would have imagined that I would enjoy, but I find that I do. I like to sit at the stage, as i feel that if you are going to be there, you might as well be there. It isn't easy to capture my interest, but there was one girl in particular who managed to do so. She quite obviously practices yoga, and she was putting it to good use on stage. Her body control was so amazing that i sat riveted during her entire routine. I'm not usually a fan of blondes (i prefer dark haired women; asian girls being my favorites by far), but this girl in particular held my attention for the rest of the evening thanks to her routine. Had she not been taken to the VIP room directly from the stage, I would have certainly gotten a private dance from her....

March 10, 2007 | 1:22 pm
I went through the ever-dreaded process of moving this week. I'm extremely happy with the place that I've moved to, but the process of getting there was interesting. The movers came by early in the morning, and there were certain things that I didn't want them to move (that I preferred to move myself. Those things I put in the master bathroom, and told the movers nothing that was going was in there, and if they needed to use the restroom, to use the guest bath.
The move was about half way over when i noticed the door to the master bathroom was shut, and that one of the movers was inside. I took a survey of what he had likely seen, and found; one chastity belt (ordered for my newest chastity slave), one set of handcuffs, a leather hood with gag and blindfold and the normal array of vintage french bondage pictures that decorate my bathroom.
Nothing was said by the movers while in my presence, but I can only imagine the conversation they had en route to my new home...

March 6, 2007 | 3:51 pm
I got a message today from one of my Clips4Sale "competitors". It was actually very kind and complimentary, which was a very nice change from the last contact I had from a c4s store (a competitor wrote and told the Clips4sale admins that I was doing content that violated c4s terms of service; a blatant lie that was clarified). It was nice that it happened to be from a store that i like as well ;)

March 5, 2007 | 4:36 pm
The poll turned out to be a good idea, and I got a lot of good feedback from some of you about my question regarding making a paid members site. I'm still on the fence about it, but I put the wheels in motion to find out if it's even possible. I had to change up my shoot schedule this week, as my cameraman was called in last minute to film a suspension (by hooks, not rope).
One of my friends has done a number of them and when she, her boyfriend and other friends had someone who was supposed to film it cancel on them last minute (I think they lost the nerve), my cam guy went and filmed it for them. I watched the entire thing, and it was interesting to say the least. I admire the aspect of people putting themselves to the test to see what they can endure.
It also makes me loose sympathy for slaves that can hardly take a paddle on the ass, when I see a girl put 12 hooks through her body and hang by them. I understand it's all relative to context, but I can't help but think less of a grown man that can't take a little paddling when I see something like that.

March 1, 2007 | 12:39 pm
I've got my hands full this week. My vanilla life has me working longer hours for people that I often have a hard time accepting the idea of "leadership" from. More often i feel like leadership roles are doled out on a first come, first served basis, and that the only reason the upper management in the company that I work for has the positions they have is because they beat me to the parking spot.
I've been have a long debate with "K" about what offering a paid area will do to my site. He makes some excellent points, but i think the changes will be less noticeable than he thinks. It's my goal to keep almost everything in tact here in the free area, if i do end up offering a members area.
I've got another new slave interested in chastity training, and I'm waiting on his keys. He seems sincere enough, but for many people the reality of actually giving the keys up can be overwhelming.
"Sissy Marie" inspired me to dole out more of my domestic duties to my slaves, and I had a bit of fun the other day making one of them wear a french maid outfit while he cleaned. He HATED it, which of course means he'll be made to do it again. That's what it means to serve a domme, doesn't it?

Feb 26th , 2007 | 6:26 pm
The traffic on this site has increased so much in the last month, that I need to upgrade hosting yet again. Needless to say, i've been considering ways to offset this, particularly since I pay for this site and give it away for free.
I've been considering making a members area for this site, so I can say and do some of the things that I'm not able to on a free site (because of the legality of making sure minors can't access things they shouldn't). I was thinking about a small fee (probably $10 a month), with one exclusive video a week, a new photo set every month, and a bit of video archives from past sessions. I'll probably put up some exclusives and things of that nature as well. What do think about that? Email me here

Feb 23rd , 2007 | 2:18 pm
I've been remiss in keeping up with my blog this week, as I decided to take a little last minute trip last weekend.
I'm going through the massive amounts of email that have backed up on me, and I'm finding some VERY interesting requests for clips. I generally try and accommodate a reasonable request, but I get some interesting ones that for one reason or another I'm unable (or unwilling)to film. Here are two of my favorites at the moment:
"I was wondering if you'd make me a 30 min custom video with you in a very tight skirt, pantyhose, and heels, preparing a live Lobster"
"Have your slave consume a banana that is extruded from your rectum!"
The rest are generally decent ideas (particularly Craig's tease and denial ideas), and some of them are clips that I've already done or plan to do, but every once in a while I get a request that's a little bizarre (even by my standards).
The other thing I get is a lot of requests for things that are considered obscene in the US. It's hard to explain to people from overseas that our government won't allow me to have videos that contain acts that are not only completely legal, but part of people's everyday routine. That's why I've joined every free speech organization I can find, and urge others to as well. An attorney I listened to lecture said we should get billboards all across the country that say "You should never go to jail for the books you read or the movies you watch", and I agree.
In other news, i'm waiting for the keys of two new chastity slaves that have convinced me to keep them locked up. They were mailed this week, and should be to me shortly...

Feb 13th , 2007 | 12:22 pm
If imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, I should be very flattered lately...
I've got a house full of people coming over tonight for a photo shoot. I've got two other dommes coming over, one of whom one of my slave dislikes, and I've been threatening to lend him to her for a weekend if he misbehaves. I think that I shall enjoy taunting him with that idea while they are here.
It's now been five weeks since slave T sent me his keys. This is his very first time in chastity, so it's not been easy for him i'm sure. I sent them back the other day, but as he is overseas, it will likely take at least a week to get the keys to him. He sends me pictures every week of himself locked in chastity, along with the local paper which shows the current date. I've made him wear panties over his chastity belt in the past, but in the last photo, I made him wear pantyhose. He enjoyed it more than I expected, but nothing should surprise me, given the amount of time his little clitty has been locked away. It's amazing how subservient a man will become with only a fraction of himself locked in a cage...

Feb 13th , 2007 | 3:04 am
Last night I went to the strip club with a number of friends. It's the first time that I've ever gone and actually had a good time. I even got a lap dance of my own from a beautiful, curvy asian girl. I don't find it as hard to imagine as some women might, that a man might like to go to a strip club and watch beautiful women dance.

Feb 6th , 2007 | 2:44 am
I finally got two DVD's done. I've had tons of requests for them recently, but i just haven't had the time to put them together. It's more work than one might imagine, since you have to pick out the scenes, the menus, the pictures for the ads, and you also have to write the descriptions and market them. These last two weeks have been hectic enough, so i'm amazed I was able to get them done!

Feb 1st , 2007 | 11:54 pm
My Double Life
Besides this project, I've got my regular job, and I occasionally model for other sites. I have a stake in a bondage site that i enjoy running, even if it's not as profitable as other projects.
My reason for mentioning this is because I have to separate myself in certain situations, and that's becoming harder and harder to do.
I'm dominant by nature, and enjoy the thrill of using a slave. I enjoy the power that comes with my position, and consider myself very adept at knowing what people want and/or need.
When I am working on other things, it's become harder and harder for me to NOT assert myself in an overtly dominant way. I naturally fall into dominating people that I sense have a submissive nature, and it's become something of a struggle for me in recent months.
Working on this project has me thinking about this lifestyle ALL the time now, and i'm coming closer to committing to eliminate outside "distractions", and spending more time doing this.
Even when it comes to modeling, I'm considering eliminating everything other than domme work. I've got a mainstream (adult) following, but often it's not as fulfilling as this is for me. I also find that I'm running out of patience for modeling for other people. In fact that's part of what got me to start this project to begin with; i wanted to be able to have creative control over what I did.
I'm writing this now because it's making me consider further what I want to do with my life, my passions and my career(s) going forward. I've got many things to consider..